Simon "hehe i so cute"









Where else but Rebel. The last time Im going for this week.

Coffee club first, where we counted down to Sam's SUPER PROMPT arrival yo.

Clarke quay was a dead town. Everyone's just penting up excitement for pre-labour day celebration. Ugh.

Ohwellzzz. Anything t see DJ Tang's face rightright ???

Keke.
85 tonight, picnic tmr and JB on Sunday.

Yippee.

Smellyjay uses his ears to cover his eyes when he sleep.




Mac's fillet only got half a slice of cheese.


Ahah, act cute ?


My hair is so darkkkk. For the first time since primary 5. HAHA.







Major turn-off,
When a guy can't behave like a gentleman and thinks it's funny or cute to insult a girl.

In other words, childish.


So conclusion, always date an older guy.


TSK !!

I went to visit my pet after a long long long while.

I want her outfit, in real life. Srsly.

Im standing on your head, Im going to jump now.

Catch me !!!!!











Caught ya !
Putting you near my chest so you wont feel cold.

This is the fucking hottest guy on earth !!!

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She preeeeeetty.
And she accompanied me to Zirca like 10 times. Keke.


Stupid.


Rebel again. Again. Againzzz.
Damn fun plz.

Zirca for trance. Simon belongs.
And look at their nice bar. So nice.
Too many oldies. I saw your teacher there.




I botak.

Just came back frm Rebel & Zirca.

"Simon said her hair so smelly"

"Handsome not ?"

"The white shirt one prettier.
The blue shirt one look a bit ah lian.
Eeee you like ah lian type."

"So she dance with other guys = loose but when she dance with you its okay la ?"

Errrr, can't rmbr what else.
But it's super funny + super fun.
Until my legs became jelly.

Zirca bar !!!
No I didnt drink :}

And I dont like flirttttttsssss.
}:

Im in love with this.
My new feel
My dark hair
My flipppppp. Flip.








.

I heard a persistent car horn through my headphones and I checked to my right but I saw no car coming.

I continued walking ahead until I reached the other side of the road, I turned and saw myself.

I saw the car and I saw me on the floor.

I continued walking.

I heard, again, through my headphones:
"So who would you like to dedicate the song to ?"
"My xxxx, who passed away."

"A few years back."


Did you hear it too ??

Deep red

Nice colour :}



Mmm. My stomach is flipping out. Its nearly 5pm and I hadnt even eaten a single bite of food.
I wish time would pass faster so I can get out and about. And eat some good food.

Nowadays, I dont have the interest to blog abt my everyday life. Feel like closing down my blog too.

Well, someone asked me to audition for some Vloggers group on Youtube. Maybe I can post tht here. ???

No mood. My life is gg no where.

And they asked me, what have you been doing during 2008 til now.
What have I been doing ?!?!?!?

Sometimes I wish, someone could instruct me what to do, and I wld just do it.
Its not always a bed of roses to have the matters in my own hands.
Im too stupid, fickle and childish to make my own decisions.




Things to do :
Study for BTT on 6May (!!!)
Collect O Lvl cert frm SEC sch (omg ? I guess it rot for 3 years)
Answer this - What have I been doing since I quit sch.
Deposit cheque after passing BTT

Find a job (this is questionable)

Enjoying my aircon now. I know. Sin !!!
It took me 2+++ hrs to reach home frm Jurong tday. Omg.
Maybe I shd just move there. 10mins drive away frm sch.




Find me.


Find my mum.









I dont have mood to party tnight ??
I feel lame now, being home on a Wed night. I actually turned down ladies night cuz #1 I thought I'd be super extra, being the "only" girl and #2 Evryone is like saying stay home and rest better because they don't want me t get high &drunk anymore.

So sad right.
Tsk.

And the wind is fcking scary right now. Damn strong.

"Today, my husband dropped me off at work, ten minutes later I got a text saying" I just dropped the b*tch off I'll be there in a few baby, miss you". I asked him about it he said he "I dont know what youre talking about Megan". My name isnt Megan, not even close. FML"

"Today, 3 days before my wedding day, I found out that my fiance is sleeping with one of my bridesmaids. I just cancelled a $200,000 wedding. I would go into more detail, but I have to help my family (who flew in from Poland, California, and Massachusetts) book flights back home. FML"

"Today, I got a call from the hospital that my fiance was in the ER. When I arrived at the hospital they told me that he had a heart attack while having sex. FML"

Too sad.

Reason being, Im terrified of all these.

Cheating
Lying

How can you ever read a person's mind &know what he's thinking, what he's doing behind your back.

Paranoid
Traumatised

???

Anyone knows where to buy the sugar tapioca snack ?
It's like tapioca sticks covered with powdered sugar that the kachang putih man always sells...

Hi monster thighs..



So in the end, we ate Sakae Teppanyaki cuz he was craving for it.
NOW HE IS ALL GOOSE LIVER GOOSE LIVER ! = foie gras. Kekekeke !!
I tasted it first, and straight away knew its liver. Then I didnt wna tell him.
Once he taste it and said its DAMN GOOD, I told him, I think its liver.
And HIS FACE CHANGE MAN !!

But anw, should have eaten the lobster meal right ? Much cheaper.

Then we were counting how many pairs of havaianas he has. Which is like, way more than 10 pairs. Crazy ??
And 8 were bought by me. I bought his 8th one today !!

:}

Watched the movie Taken. Super nice, and so sad.
I wish I was loved as much as that. By anyone.



After today, spending too much. I need to watch it so I can still have my good life and eat my good food and take my comfort cabs :}

Im not interested in saving for anything else except... Bf's bday in August. Its so far away but you know how much $$$ I have to save up to buy all his crap like I always do.

Thankfully, I dont have to care about paying for driving cuz it's all settled.
&Even a nice cute car waiting for me to use her :}

Life is good. I need to get back to sch though. Can't let my brain take such a long vacation.
Maybe get a job too.

Town in 1 hrs time.
What's good to eat in town ? Not the usual billy bombers, waraku, hk cafe, sushi.
Sick of those.

Im treating Bf to dinner tnight. And I want a super GOOD meal !

Feeling anything ???

Rebel last night. ZH's puke fest outside Lunar.
Eeks.

No more partying for me. No smokes, no drinks.
A promise & an eye for an eye. What you do, I can do too. Rmbr ?

Its time t chill out.

I WANT A tiny BBQ !
Now.

Zirca, Rebel, Butter.










Drank too much. Many tequilasss, jager bomb, long island &&&.
All in one shot.
Those are killer liquids. Agh.




Bf came to pick me.
I fell aslp with full make-up on. Ugh ! But he helped wash me up.
And serving me scramble eggs with ham + warm milo.

:}

Next day, we still managed to go JB. Srsly.

Sushi at Sushi King for our hungry tummies.


Not so nice. Not so cheap.

Walk walk. Saw tattoos. Such a boring mall.

Sang Karaoke.



Ate Baskin Robin's ice cream. Yum :}

And back home in the long bus ride.

Now Im finally HOME, in my own home. Was supposed to go Rebel tnight.
But but. I backed out. Now everyone backed out too. Hahah !

I still owe Simon a free entry !!
And no more drinking for me :}











P.S. I LOVE MY NEW SHOES !!!

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Cuz the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

This is the Rebel community.

















DAMN FUN. What's new. Dancing like nobody's business and someone cried like nobody's business too. Drama again.
Conclusion is, sad pple should not drink !
Im like the perfectly sober one. Keke, didn't drink :}

Reached home at 1plus, then rushed for my tuition. And finally slept at 4plus ! When I reached home &finished my nasi lemak :}

Before Rebel, I was @Tanjong Katong. Super nice Japanese restaurant.
Mum, sis &Roger ordered all-you-can-eat buffet. Big plate of fresh raw sashimi, edamame, unagi, chicken wings, chawanmushi, fish and fish and loads more.
But guess what ? Poor me can't even touch their food.
Because I act smart, I ordered a la carte. Cuz the buffet is super not cheap, and I didnt have confidence eating so much.

After, went to ice cream chef. Ice cream and cornflakes is the best ! And I must always always have gummy bears no matter how hard they are to chew or whatever flavour my ice cream is.
Cold Rock is much better though for the variety, except their staff at Holland V SUCKS, always never crush my mix-ins properly. DAMN SHAME. The one in Australia is 10000x better.

Just go to Ice cream chef, the girls working there are fucking hot. &Moreover, it's near all those goodlookingpeople schools - CHIJ, St Pat's and VJ.
Keke.


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Im damn sad. Because I feel like going out. But all my friends are either alr outside, having family dinner or sleeping still.

I wna drive. I can swoop besty up for supper every single night :}
IN THE PROCESS OF LEARNING NOW !

Drink, drank, drunk.

Once I hit Zirca, I was damn damn sad. I downed all my shots, I downed all my vodka.
Became fucking high then went to Rebel t meet Simon &James.

I cried on the dancefloor. Damn weak.
But everybody help me wipe my tears :}
And I feel damn happy when my bestfriends hug me.

Simon still can ask me "You know you cried not ?" "You know what you doing ?".
Im high lor, not drunk. I rmb everything.



The feeling is nice.


Our eyes damn small/closed cuz the flash is tooooo bright. Even our eyelids have no energy.

Reached home in the morning &I still got energy t MSN w Simon for a few hrs. Cuz I dont dare slp ? Lol. But yeeeea, some pple nag me t sleep. Hai.

I just feel everything is falling apart, no matter how perfect everything actually is now. I have everything I want. I have so many pple who love me and care for me.
But I have a heartache ? I don't know what's up either.








So cute ^^


Waiting for Simon t wake up. He's the only one tht can entertain me.
Lol.

From amanda's blog.

"I hate


GUYS like srsly.

They are fine being friends and goodfriends but they can never make good a boyfriend.
Been in too many situations before, my friends and myself.

your boy likes new girl, other girl likes your boy. Both parties denied its their fault but they dont know this, it takes 2 hands to clap. U dont give her/him the chance, nothing will happened.

You try so hard to make him yours. And so what if you are bf and gf? Even married couples divorce. Its more then love.

sometimes it's Just better being friends cuz no one will get hurt in the end."




I bolded those I think are damn true. Falling in love with a 3rd party can always be avoided. Because there is no such thing as REAL love at first sight. You went to flirt w the person at your own risk.

And greed is one of the main things. You can't have both things at once. You will have to let go of one, to get hold of the other.

Its more than love.
Don't you get it ?

Love Amanda, she's so fucking smart.

Smile! Life's good. says (02:07):
You see,I always had this mindset. watching someone walk out of my life, doesn't make me bitter or cynical about love. It only makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along




Can I say, I feel so much better now ? I feel happy. I feel light.
And it's all thanks to all of my friends. Now I know that I really have them and I really love them like fuckkkk !!

It took me 2 days, a bucketful of tears and a beat-up heart to realise this.
I realised the real reason I was sad. The real reason I kept crying like a fool.
And that reason was the total and complete opposite of what I had thought all along.

I was too clouded by my anger, hatred, sadness and devastation to like open my fucking eyes and look into the mirror and srsly ask myself, Wtf am I doing ?

I stooped damn low for something I thought would make me feel better.

But now I finally corrected my thoughts. Think realistically. And I can't believe how much happier Im feeling.
Compared to me 2hrs ago ? Me tht nearly tried to kill myself multiple times by trying t jump down ?

Srsly !!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS.

And Im gna have sooo much fun tmr and Wed.
Sorry for my fucking emo self. Its over. Im done w it. ITS SO NOT ME, ITS RUINING MY IMAGE.

Im going to breathe my fresh air and put all this behind me.

To all the heartbroken, I feel you. Being happy is not difficult (said Simon). Stop holding yourself back from SO MUCH you are capable of, from all the happy days you can have. Wake up from your sorry state and inject confidence in yourself. Im telling you FOR A FACT, confidence is the key. With confidence, you rule the day. Don't live another day in sadness cuz life is fucking short. Stop wasting your time. Get off your fucking ass and party like no tmrrrr !!!

Fuchsia pumps $30mailed
(bought at SGD30++ from Urbanog.com)
Brand new, never worn
Size 6
Shoes true to pic

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Scoop neck t-shirt dress $15mailed.
Size S
Brand new, never worn
Baggy fit for UK6-UK8
Cut it up ! Slashed tees are in the trend right now :)

Example:



E-mail nicole.lxl@gmail.com


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Meanwhile, waiting for:
2x shoes
3x instant film
1x contact lens
to be delivered to me:)

Dance
Dance
Study
BTT
Lessons
Work
Work
Party
& Work

Yay:)

Using my super vintage phone now !!
Just for fun. Even though my current phone is still in working condition, haha.


29 march.


Can you believe I wore this out? To orchard.
And 10 out of 10 people were staring at it.
I thought it was quite a normal thing to wear out.


30 march.

ROCK BAND !!!
Addicted alr, srsly srsly.
Played guitar, drums and singsong ! Damn embarrassing cuz all the songs I heard before but I've never ever known the lyrics. Bon jovi, coldplay, no doubt all those old school. And got spectators. Omg, lol.
But it's our new hang out place. Much cheaper than lvl9 at cine.

Thought of buying our own. But my interest in games NEVER last. And its so damn lame to buy the whole set (2 guitars, 1 drum set, mic) which takes up sooo much space and is gna last me a month at most.


My shoes, lol. Someone put it at the door entrance for strangers to step and trip over.


Next morning, 01 April.

I cooked pasta and scrambled eggs for brunch.
The eggs damn nice but the pasta sucks because of the sauce.
DON'T BUY LEGGO's brand. Damn gross.


Night time !!!

Went to Rebel like 12plus. Everyone said Im late. But its the perfect time t come, fyi.

Party with Simon, James, Kim, Amanda and other random.

Saw many many faces ! From pri sch, from work long ago, from yesteryear...

Drank a lot. And I only ask for shots cuz I hate mixers, it makes me go to the toilet like 10x in one night. Not drunk, but damn high. High on music !

Simon &all left at 3am. Left me, Kim who made a new friend. While she disappeared, I was floating. Crazy w Anees, butterfactory slut, a hardcore crazy bung and all the hiphophiphopshit trying to challenge me dance. Damn fun ! Im like energizer bunny. 12am - 4am non-stop jumping.

I love gay boys. They are the most most fun.



Went to the guys' studio apartment at Central. (They opened their own dance school. COOL RIGHT!) Super nice ! Got 5 heated jacuzzis and pools. Which we played but don't dare get wet.
Fell asleep in the dance studio until 8plus, then cabbed home cuz too uncomfortable.

Woke at 4pm today. Going _ tonight for Rock band again :DD

I turn my head to the east I don't see nobody by my side,
I turn my head to the west, still nobody in sight,
So I turn my head to the north swallow that pill that they call pride,
The old me is dead and gone but the new me will be alright.


Secret.
Sang out of tune, played guitar, hit the drums in one day.
Found a new spot to chill and rock out to rockband &guitarhero the whole day.
We're gna be regulars and Im gna get a job there. So we can 24/7. Keke.
Damn fun damn fun.

Should I eat Mcspicy as supper tonight??